To My 18 year old Self,
Congratulations you are graduating high school, now here are somethings you need to know about entering the adult world. As you enter into the adult world, you will feel even more confused, alone, and maybe slightly unsure about if you are doing the right thing, and here is the thing, do not worry too much. Because you are not the only one who feels this way, millions of people feel alone, feel unsure about their purpose, and feel as though they are lost in the chaos of life. Just breathe. Breathe and do not be afraid to get the help that you need.
As you navigate through the college years and the multiple jobs you will have, you will find yourself a little more. Especially in the sense of what you are looking for in a workplace setting, and what you are looking for in your own career. Don’t assume that you will figure it out right away, because in reality that is just ridiculous. You will not figure it out until later on in life. Also, keep in mind, you will have numerous jobs, these jobs are to prepare you for your own business that you will end up creating in your early twenties.
Love, you never really focused on love all that much in high school. Sure, you dated a few people, but you never really thought about love, or the marriage aspect of it. But now as you head into adulthood, you will end up finding yourself focusing a little more on the whole subject matter. Before you end up in a relationship with anyone, figure out what it is that you look for in a partner, because if you have no clue then you will end up throwing yourself into random useless relationships that are unfulfilling, and you will end up thinking that there is something wrong with you. And you know that saying, “things will happen when the time is right”? Yeah, that saying is true. Stop overthinking everything and focusing on the fact during the times that you are single that you don’t have anyone, because that is not helping you and you will end up putting yourself through even more heartache.
Don’t be afraid to speak your mind, because I know right now that you are extremely shy about saying anything, because you are more about making sure that everyone is happy, and you are more about pleasing everyone. Know this, you cannot please everyone. And with you still in the closet to a good portion of your family, you are hurting yourself and damaging yourself even more. Be proud to be bisexual, there is nothing wrong with it.
Just remember, life is going to tear you down, send you into a breakdown, and I know that you will have more depression breakdowns, just remember to breathe. Go get help, don’t be stubborn, and do not think that you are a burden because you are not. And remember to breathe, because if you could see where you are now in 2017, you would be so proud.
25 year old me