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My Music World


The picture in this post definitely represents who I am as a singer-songwriter. It represents my unique creative writing. It shows that I like to blend several worlds together.
I’ve been writing songs since I was a freshman in high school. My songs have always been a bit different from mainstream. Which is perfectly fine, due to the fact that I am not into much mainstream music.
In my songs, I blend Indie Rock, Soul, and Jazz together to create my own sound and own type of story telling. I love to sing my songs and have lots of fun. Singing and writing, on top of helping people, have always been my emotional and creative outlet. I’m able to be myself in my music. Just create songs that hopefully somehow someone will be able to connect on some level.
My musical influences include Etta James, JJAMZ, Frank Sinatra, Amy Winehouse, Sam Cooke, The Clientele, The June Brides, The Beatles, Peaches and Herb, Cat Power, Imogen Heap, Silver Apples. All of these musicians have inspired me in some way. Either by different sounds or creating my own writing method.

Everyone is completely different when it comes to music. You don’t have to be a songwriter, poet or singer in order to love music.
So my question to everyone is this… what type of music do you listen to? And why?

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Truth About God


Before I go right into this post, I need to say something and I know that most people are going to possibly get offended and send me hate mail. But I will not care.
I would just like to say that this post is a response to Jessa Duggar’s post on hell, sinners and judgement. I believe in God. I practice Kabbalah, which in fact is part of the Judaism faith. But unlike Jessa, I constantly question everything. I want to learn more about my faith. I question every part of it, even if I get thousands of weird looks.

I grew up in a Baptist home, reading the bible with my grandma and sometimes going to church. I was always the type of person who thought that I didn’t need to go to a church in order to be close to God. In fact, I have always thought I could spend my time out in nature or even in the comfort of my own home to be close to him. And personally for me, It’s a thousand times better than going to a church. Besides believing in not going to a church to be closer, there was another reason why I would not step inside a church: everyone there would judge me. No, I was not being paranoid. I saw the looks on their faces, the way everyone looked at me when I had entered the nave. They would even look at me when I started questioning things from the bible and why God would do so many horrible things when he had supposedly loves everyone. Not only that, they would give me dirty looks when I started to defend the LGBTQ Community. So this started to push me away from the churches and retire to my home and practice Kabbalah, an esoteric method of Judaism, which is where I feel more at home.

So I would like to share a few verses from the bible.

Proverbs 6: 16-19

There are six things that the Lord hates, seven that are an abomination to him; haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, a great that devises wicked plans, feet that make hate to run to evil, a false witness who breathes out lies, and one who sows discord among brothers.

Time and time again, these keep showing up in the bible. I can tell you right now that everyone, and I mean everyone, even the most religious families like the Duggar’s sin. They are not the most innocent people in the world. I’m not perfect. I’ve sinned in the past. I have seen some things that I wish I had never seen, but I have learned from my past sins and moved on. Why? Because Jesus died on the cross for our sins and loves me no matter what.

1 John 4:7
Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.

Love one another.
Simple as that. Do I need to paraphrase it in any other way. No? Good. Who are we to judge someone else’s life. We do not have the right to judge anyone. I know that I do not have the right to judge another person. If a person is gay, then I love you anyways. I don’t care about your sexual preference. I care about your personality and heart. If you have sinned, that’s okay, well, not fully okay. But I love you still. Everyone sins. It’s human nature. But we must learn from it and move on. Jesus sinned just as much as we did. He got drunk off of wine, “hung out” with prostitutes, spent a majority of his time with sinners. Not only that, Jesus loved everyone. Loved every soul.
And he still does.

If a person doesn’t believe in hell, then to each their own. You have the right to believe in that. I have no say in what you believe. I, however, do believe in hell, just due to my own experiences. But I can honestly say that, I’m not going to judge you like most people would automatically do. I’m going to embrace you in my arms and show you compassion. I do not get the say if you go to heaven or hell, that’s God’s call. I will however show you the love that you deserve. Agape. Universal love. That’s what everyone on this earth deserves. Not to be judged. But to be loved.

For the record Jessa, you have no right to say that whoever does not believe in something will go to hell. You don’t know the relationship between God and the other person. You don’t know the trials that the person is going through. That person might be sinning but God still loves them regardless. There is a place for everyone.. everyone in heaven. Don’t just assume that someone who sins or doesn’t believe in certain things is going straight to hell. The bible can be interpreted in any way. You may think it is saying one thing, but another will look at it differently.

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Our Sex-Crazed Generation


50 Shades of Grey, No Stings Attached, American Pie, Love and other Drugs; these are just a few movies from our generation that shamelessly shows sex all the time. It shows our generation that having casual sex is ten times better than being in a loving committed relationship. On top of that, we have songs playing on the radio that talks about sucking, licking, blowing, and “going down on each other” all the time. Very rarely will there be a decent song that’s about love and commitment.

I’m just like every other human being out there. I crave closeness, intimacy, sex. But call me old fashioned, but I think that when it comes to making love, I have to be in a committed loving relationship in order to even go that far with a man. I could never do casual sex, that is just not who I am. Sex is supposed to be a beautiful thing. It should not be displayed. Your private parts are for you and your partner. Not for the rest of the world to see. There was a moment a long time ago when a picture was sent out and family and friends had seen it, which I still feel horrible about but I’ve moved on.

For all of those who want the no strings attached, they are crazy. Yes, I called them crazy. I’m sorry but no person in their right mind wants a no strings attached type of relationship with someone. Because deep down, everyone wants someone to be close to and share that intimacy with a special person.
But at this point, our society is too sex crazed and not even giving committed loving relationships a try. Everyone just keeps jumping from one person to the next, It’s like a herpe central station. Not only is it unhealthy, but it destroys the sanctity of sex. I’m not judging, I’m just distraught by how everyone is acting. The way that everyone just treats sex as if it isn’t a special thing. But sex is a special thing.
So special. It is the most intimate thing in the world that must be shared with only someone that you truly love. And not just hand it out on a silver platter.

My point of this whole post is this: I wish everyone would view sex and relationships differently. View it as a bond that is between two people who love each other. Sex is a beautiful thing. I find it beautiful. But I know that it is supposed to be between two people who love each other so much. A bit of advice my friends: stop blowing off relationships. Everyone deserves so much more than a one night stand.

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Welcome To The Book Club!


I’ve recently decided that I am going to start a book club on my site. For right now, I am going to be posting the books on this part of my site, until I get the rest of it up and running.

Once a month I will be posting a book for everyone to check out and get back into reading. I want to introduce books to those around the world and open your imagination.
Without further ado, here’s the first book for the club.

This is a twist on the classic Little Mermaid novel, by Hans Christian Anderson. It’s quite a bit different. The book simply draws you in. It entices you. This book is perfect for a weekend morning with breakfast in bed. I own this book, and absolutely love it.
You can either find it at your local library or online at Barnes and Noble, Hastings, or any other bookstore online. Check it out and let me know what you think!

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Jesus in Our Society


Now, before I dive right into this post, I would like to say that I’m not a religious person, however I am a spiritual person. I practice the Kaballah way of living. The mysticism, philosophical, spiritual, loving aspect of Judaism. I have no problem whatsoever with discussing religious views with another person, however, I do not want someone else’s views shoved down my throat.

On with the post shall we.
The other night I was on the phone with my dad, talking about the conversations he had been having with some co-workers and a few locals at a store. One of the conversations caught my attention. My dad and one of the locals had talked about where Jesus would go if he was hanging around in our society. The man had mentioned that Jesus would never enter a casino or even step inside a bar. But my dad had disagreed. As well he should have.
Here are the things my dad and I agreed on.
Jesus would’ve stepped inside a bar, casino, strip joints.
Jesus spent his time with the sinners. He didn’t care where they were. He wants to spend time with them. Talk to them. Comfort them. He may not put money into the slot machines, and have just a glass of wine with the drunk at the bar; but he would want to spend time and show others love and compassion. He would want to help them get over there addictions.

Many people keep forgetting that Jesus hung out with all of the sinners. In fact, there is much speculation that Jesus had a physical relationship with Mary Magdalene. I can honestly say that I wouldn’t doubt it. It may have happened, but who knows. I know that a lot of people are going to get ticked off from me even saying this, but at least I’m not naive to know that even Jesus committed sins. He is just like everyone else, even if he is God’s son.
He loved everyone, and still does to this day.

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Today’s Beauty Standards


In our society, there’s supposed to be a list of what the beauty standards are.
The things on this list include straightening your hair, wearing makeup, have the perfect body, be tall, no tattoos, wear provocative clothing, among many other things. But surprisingly enough, not everyone looks like this nor do they dress provocatively.
I definitely do not meet the modern standards of beauty.
My hair is combination of beachy-ringlets. On top of that, I don’t wear makeup and I have a petite athletic body that a friend describes it as a gymnast body. My sense of style is completely different from everyone around me, it’s a combination of bohemian/minimalist/whimsical/athletic. I rather wear a pair of sweatpants with a tank top and hoodie, or a lace top with tank top layers and pair of black jeans. On top of that, I have four tattoos. Whereas, if a modern woman has tattoos, then she would be considered trashy.
Our society has gotten so messed up with beauty standards. I would just like to say that everyone is beautiful. You don’t have to straighten your hair or even curl it to be considered beautiful. If you don’t want to wear makeup, then don’t. If you want to have tattoos, then get them. But do make sure that your tattoos have meaning. It’s better that way. In the end, be true to yourself and embrace your uniqueness. Everyone is beautiful in their own unique way. It is time to embrace your beauty.

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I Still Believe In Everything


As I head into my mid 20’s, I see many adults start to forget the things that they once believed in. They lose faith in God or whoever they once believed in.
But for me, it’s a different story.
I still believe in the Kabbalah teachings: the mystical and philosophical way of Judaism.
I still believe in God.
I still believe in the existence of mermaids, aliens, unicorns.
I still believe in reincarnation.
I still believe in past lives.
I still believe in peace, love and a utopian society.
I still believe in lost civilizations.
I still believe in the beauty of life and death.
I still believe in true love.
I still believe that there are hidden places around the world, high in the mountains and deep in the sea.
I still believe in living the zen lifestyle; with my books, movies, natural herbs, and nature.

I find it sad that everyone has stopped believing in the things that they once believed in. It’s time to start believing again.