Book Club: August

For the month of August, I wanted to chose a book that a large portion of the world is going through at this moment, war, spiritual awakenings, segregations, and imposed limitations for what someone is “suppose” to believe in (inside their own religion). Find Nouf by Zoë Ferraris dives into each one of those touchy subjects.

Sixteen-year-old Nouf goes missing, along with a truck and her favorite camel, her family (who are wealthy)calls on Nayir al-Sharqi, a desert guide, to lead a search party. Only ten days later, when Nayir is about to give up, Nouf’s body has been discovered by some anonymous desert travelers. At first it seems as those Nouf had died of dehydration, but the coroner’s report came back with the death being ruled as drowning. Her family suddenly becomes uninterested in finding out how she could’ve drowned, however, Nayir takes it upon himself to finding out what really happened to Nouf. This will push gentle, pious Nayir, a Palestinian orphan raised by his bachelor uncle, to delve into the secret life of a protected teenage girl, in one of the most rigidly gender-segregated of Middle Eastern societies.

This novel dives deeper showcasing us Nayir’s deepest thoughts, and see him go through transformations spiritually and mentally as he discovers more about Nouf’s death.

Wherever my Soul Takes Me

I am the type of person who is always looking for the next place to travel, the next place to lay my head while I learn more of my holistic trade, help others, and write more poetry and stories. I am what most people call a nomad, wanderluster, a wandering hippie who wants to learn everything, see everything, and heal everything. And that is exactly who I am. I am constantly thinking about the next place I want to travel to, and experience the culture surrounding the area. It is in my bones, in my skin, in my heart, and in my soul. This is why I keep a handful of things with me, just a duffel bag of clothes and books, and a backpack.

For three years, I lived in New Mexico, in Taos for a good portion, and Albuquerque for a brief period. While I lived there I ended up going numerous adventures, one long weekend I got in my car and went to Utah and Arizona, and trust me it was amazing. I went to Colorado on numerous occassions to see family and friends, I traveled to Oklahoma to see my parents and younger brother. And at one point I went to California and had a great time. Now, I currently live in Alaska, situated next to Canada, above Washington, and a flight away from New Zealand and Japan. And right now, I can’t wait to see where my soul and feet take me next, because I live for adventures.

When you are nomadic at heart, you are bound to have endless adventures. And there is nothing wrong with that, because that is the soul you were born with. Where do you like to travel? Do you like going on long trips to unknown destinations?

Proceed with Caution (Poem)

Warning, warning!
Proceed with extreme caution,
one more step and they’ll put on the parental locks.
They don’t want to speak of it,
they dont want to have the discussion,
no they just want to push it aside,
and add more stigma on it.

What are you afraid of?
Afraid to acknowledge it?
Afraid to admit you were wrong about it?
Stop telling everyone that there is something wrong with us,
that we require to be treated as though we are dolls.
No, instead say it,
I dare you,
say the two words,
mental illness.

Seeking Answers in Mother Nature

For the past month, I haven’t really written a lot of posts for this site, nor have I really posted anything on my social media accounts, due to the fact that I have been in the process adjusting to my new job, new town, and new state. On top of that, I needed the time to take care of myself, to focus on my health and mentality, and to dive into my art and dreams. 

We’ve all been there, a new place where things seem foreign, a place of isolation even if we know a few people there, a time where we feel a little bit lost and are looking for the right path for us to take, hoping that we can find some sort of guidance to help us out. That’s where I’ve been for the past month. Don’t get me wrong, I love Alaska, it’s truly magnificent and outrageously beautiful. But there has been a few moments of, “is this truly where I’m supposed to be right now?” And so this past month, I had been going out into nature, talking to Mother Earth and seeking answers to my questions, and she answered. 

Being linked to Mother Earth, Father Sky, and my ancestors that roamed around the forests, hills, and mountains, it keeps me grounded, and gives me the ability to receive answers in my dreams. Sometimes they don’t make sense when I’m having the dream, but once they become reality, then I completely understand what they were trying to tell me. And that was what I was dealing with, I had received the answers that I was looking for. 

Not only that, I have been focus on my health and well being, by eating a little differently, going out into nature more since I live just half a mile from a trail that leads up into the mountains. There I can breathe, just stand in silence, and just be happy and healthy once more. 

Sometimes, we just need to step away from our electronic devices, social media accounts, and websites to heal ourselves before we can communicate with others and help others.

A True Beauty (Poem)

He had a certain type of beauty to him,
Not the hollywood glitz and glamour,
But a beauty that came through years of torment that resided inside.
Roughed up,
Spit out,
Thrown out on the sidewalks,
With women and men walking by,
Without giving him a shot.
This society we live in is corrupt,
It tells women to be brainless,
Tells men to achieve a hollywood staus.
Who are we kidding,
No amount of twilight sparkle will ever catch my eye.
Give me a man that will speak his mind,
Express raw emotion,
And for God’s sake,
Make sure he doesn’t follow society’s stupid pride.
Photo Model: Henry Rollins 

You Went Along (Poem)

You went along with everyone,
To watch me on the floor,
To watch the glass shatter,
As I bled out the pain through my eyes,
While you began to slowly move towards the door.
You went along with everyone,
To dance the night away,
As you let me drown,
While you got wasted by the old memories,
As you danced till dawn.
You went along with everyone,
Sang the same damn song,
Mimicking them as you slowly disolved,
You went along.

The Minimalist Nomad: Traveling Lifestyle

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Recently, while I was working at the clinic today, a coworker of mine had asked me about my trip plans to Alaska (I am moving the first weekend of March). This had started a conversation that begun at 9 am and it is still proceeding. One of the questions had stuck out though.

** K: Are you flying or driving?
Me: I am flying.
**K: Nice. How many luggage’s are you taking with you?
Me: Just my backpack and my duffel bag.
**K: Wait…that is all? How much do you have?
Me: Not that much, actually. I travel light.
**K: What all do you own?
Me: A few outfits that I can mix and match, a set of pajamas my tennis shoes, winter boots, heavy jacket, a few books: 5 reading, 5 writing, some pens, feminine necessities, a deck of tarot cards, wallet, phone and laptop.
**K: Wait, that is it? I have a whole bunch of stuff in my house that I could never get rid of. How do you do it?
Me: I’ve never needed much. Just the necessities and a few things that I know I will definitely want to have on me.

(**Kept my coworkers name confidential for legal purposes.)

Traveling, for many seems like a daunting thing, due to the fact that you have to figure out what you are going to bring with you and what you are going to donate, throw away, or sell. Many times, people tend to develop attachments to inanimate objects and begin to feel as though they must save many things, making it hard for them to get rid of things down the road.

When it comes to traveling, you need to think about many different scenarios from flying to sailing to luggage prices and about what you actually need with you. You also need to think about the others that are coming with you, if you have children, and try to figure out exactly what they need to bring as well. With this much going on in one persons head, it can make you go crazy, and in the end, you wind up with a headache or a migraine over this whole thing.

Minimalism is a Zen-living style where you own less materials and objects, and focus more on yourself, family, and living life. As a society, everyone has been creating attachments to inanimate objects, making them seem like they are a big thing, and in which they are not. When you release the objects that you do not need, you begin to feel better, you begin to eliminate any discontent you have, you are able to live in the moment, able to focus on your health, pursue your passions, and you’ll be able to rid yourself of any excess stuff. Doesn’t that sound grand?

Living the minimalist lifestyle, especially while traveling, makes things a lot easier. From relieving yourself from excess objects, you will be able to enjoy life more, and focus on everything around you, instead of accumulating things.