Wherever my Soul Takes Me

I am the type of person who is always looking for the next place to travel, the next place to lay my head while I learn more of my holistic trade, help others, and write more poetry and stories. I am what most people call a nomad, wanderluster, a wandering hippie who wants to learn everything, see everything, and heal everything. And that is exactly who I am. I am constantly thinking about the next place I want to travel to, and experience the culture surrounding the area. It is in my bones, in my skin, in my heart, and in my soul. This is why I keep a handful of things with me, just a duffel bag of clothes and books, and a backpack.

For three years, I lived in New Mexico, in Taos for a good portion, and Albuquerque for a brief period. While I lived there I ended up going numerous adventures, one long weekend I got in my car and went to Utah and Arizona, and trust me it was amazing. I went to Colorado on numerous occassions to see family and friends, I traveled to Oklahoma to see my parents and younger brother. And at one point I went to California and had a great time. Now, I currently live in Alaska, situated next to Canada, above Washington, and a flight away from New Zealand and Japan. And right now, I can’t wait to see where my soul and feet take me next, because I live for adventures.

When you are nomadic at heart, you are bound to have endless adventures. And there is nothing wrong with that, because that is the soul you were born with. Where do you like to travel? Do you like going on long trips to unknown destinations?

The Personal Growth we go Through

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This year I will be turning 26, and while I am off exploring my new home state (Alaska) for the next couple of years, I will be learning more about myself as I go. About two years ago, I wrote a post about knowing yourself, and knowing that you are ever growing, and that couldn’t be even more true. Because every day, every month, and every year we are learning more about ourselves as we continue on in this life. Think back, are you the same person you were three or ten years ago, no, you were not. You have changed in many ways, and some of those ways may be subtle, nevertheless, you’ve changed. Now, the changes you’ve gone through don’t affect your overall personality, quirks, or who you are in general, it just means that you’ve matured in the sense of your personality. I know that I’ve changed in the past ten years, and that doesn’t scare me at all, in fact, it helps me embrace who I am as a person.

Growing up, I ‘ve always been known as the hippie child or granola child amongst my friends and family, because I would refuse to eat meat, bring stray animals home (tried to bring a snake home once, my mom was not having that), talked about utopia and love, put flowers in my messy curls; my personality was all about love, peace, and equality, and it still is. My personality is still like that, however it has matured on another level, and I embrace it. Because it is who I am. I don’t eat red meat or poultry at all now, and I get my source of protein from fish, eggs, and various nuts (except peanuts – I’m allergic), and vegetables. I still hug the trees, rescue animals from horrible living conditions, don’t follow any religion – however I am spiritual, and live a nomadic/hygge life of moving around to different places to continue my writing and helping others.

Personal growth, spiritual growth, mental growth, emotional growth, are all very important in our lives, for they are part of our own path’s and purposes in this life. We must allow for the growth to occur, let ourselves mature, and take us on these detours throughout our life. That is what makes it so fun.

Tales of a Nomadic Writer

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From the moment I was born, I’ve always been independent. My parents, teachers, and the rest of my relatives have always known this, they had known that I was the little introverted independent one of my immediate family. On top of that, they all knew that I was a little bit more different from the family by another factor, being a nomad. Besides actually being a descendant of nomads, my soul and heart has always led me to the next place that I would call my current home and stay there for a period of time to learn what I needed to learn, and write what has inspired me in that place.

Staying in one place for a long time tends to make me feel lost and depressed, that is because I have been engulfed by the sensation of hiareth (to make the definition short “to find a place that I can truly call home”), and engulfed by the sensation of the world to travel it, and explore every inch of it. Thankfully my jobs allow me to travel and explore, while I help others. Being a nomad is nothing to be ashamed of, in fact, I think it is a great thing. Because exploring the world, experiencing new places and things, all the while helping others, is one of the most amazing things to do in this day and age. On top that, I think that living a life of working 9 to 5 jobs till the day I die is not what life is about. Life is more than just about a paycheck and more than the materialistic things that we lug around. The way I see it, is that life is about making memories, learning from experiences, understanding this earth that we live on by exploring every crevice on it, and enjoy the wonder that is this Universe. To me, that is what we should be doing in our lives.

Don’t you want to settle down or have kids? The most common question that I get on a regular basis. Yes I do want to settle down, and yes I would love to have kids. However, I don’t believe that I have to give up my lifestyle to have either of those. I can settle down and get married, then have kids, all the while traveling to new places. I have a few friends who have done it and they are still traveling around the world with their families, that is the lifestyle that I want. I would want my children to learn not only in a classroom setting, but also would want them to learn from their worldly experiences.

Being a nomad, and living the lifestyle is not scary at all. In fact, it is exhilarating. Because I never know what beautiful scenery I will come across, or what I will learn. That is just who I am.

 

Creating Your Life

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Each and everyone one of us was born with our own life path and our own purpose on this earth; and with the Universe guiding us along the way, we have the ability to make the big choices in life from how we want to live, what career we end up in, to the food lifestyle we follow. Putting yourself in the Universe’s hands can seem a little daunting to most, but in reality, it isn’t daunting at all. In fact, it feels like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders and you get the sense that everything will be alright and not to worry about things to come.

When it comes to building a life for yourself, you don’t know where to start. You see everyone else’s life, and you are wanting their life for yourself. However, that is not how it should be. You should want to create this life the way you would want to live it, not how everyone else is living their life. Ask yourself, “Where do I want to live? What career choice do I want to pursue to help others and myself? What is it that I want most out of my life? Where do I want to see myself in 5, 10, 15 years? What kind of relationship do I want to have with myself?” Asking yourself these questions will help you get yourself off the ground and start creating that life that you want.

For so many years, those questions rang in the back of my mind; however, I decided to let them linger there for a while. And now that I am twenty five years old, I have answered all of those questions, and have begun to create the life that I have always wanted. A simplistic life, where I can focus on helping others through stress managing, nutrition, exercise, meditation, and counseling; all the while I can work from home and be my own boss. A simplistic life, where I can live the minimalistic life and practice the hygge lifestyle, and have the opportunity to travel the world. A simplistic life where not only can I help and guide others, but also be able to pursue my passions as a poet and author, baker, and gardener.

I threw my answers from my mind out to the Universe (law of attraction), and while I was pursuing my goals and not getting anywhere really, the Universe knocked on the door and presented me with the opportunities to live the life that I wanted. And that is exactly what you have to do. Ask yourself those questions above, then answer them. After you have answered those questions, throw your answers out to the Universe and let it rest in the Universe’s hands. Don’t forget about what you are wanting in your life, but also do not dread on it and think about it constantly. You will be able to have the life that you have always wanted, just don’t give up on the Universe, and don’t ever give up on yourself.

Just Be You

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In this day and age everyone is trying so hard to fit and try to be just like everyone else. What they do not realize is that by doing this, they are hiding the real them away in the basement of their minds and hearts. At some point, everyone wants to fit in so badly with society, to be accepted, and to be loved that they will do just about anything and say anything. Fitting in should not be a priority for anyone to be honest, instead standing out in the crowd is much better and healthier too.

Look at it this way, if you were trying to fit into the mold that society has created, then you become just like everyone else…a sheep. Do you want to be a sheep? Do you want to spend the rest of your life following the rest of the world, and not be your true self? Do you want to have someone control the way you think, you talk, the way you dress, and act? No? Then stop trying to fit into society and follow your mind and your heart.

Following your heart and mind ultimately leads you to happiness. Yes, you will hit a few bumps along the way, but you are supposed to. The path that you are supposed to be following (that is designed for you, and only you) is to lead you to your own enlightenment, your own happiness, and to your own growth. Trying to be someone that you are not, will steer you completely off your path and that will destroy you. Not all at once, but slowly.

Society has this messed up so-called vision of what everyone needs to look like, act like, think like, and be into, in order to be “hip and cool”. Trust me, being either hip or cool is not the greatest thing in the world, nor should it be a top priority in life. Follow your own path, reach your enlightenment and your milestones, find your own personal legend, and follow your passions and dreams…. just be you and no one else.

In the Dead of Night

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What is the first thing we do when we wake up each and every morning? We either turn on the television, grab a newspaper, or even get onto the internet. Most people catch up on the news due to the fact that it changes daily and new things happen all over the world in the dead of night, so as they get ready they will be able to hear the news playing throughout their homes while they rush around and grab whatever they are needing for that day.

Almost every morning on the news, the number one thing that seems to be an occurrence is violence. Women are being mutilated in specific parts of the world, gays are being lynched still in different regions of the world, and there are more mass shootings in the United States within the past ten years alone. Here is my question, why is there still violence? Why are there women’s genitalia getting mutilated? Why are the LGBT community still receiving hate and getting murdered around the world? Why are there mass shootings happening at least once a month? Why?

Women are strong; they are strong when they are educated, they are strong when the stand up for not only the rights for themselves but for others as well, and they are so strong that they can hold a baby inside of them for nine months then deliver that baby during intense hours of labor. Those who wish to make women feel inferior are inferior themselves. They do not see that even in the past thousands and thousands of years, women have ran civilizations and were considered priestess (ancient times of Europe and Asia). The LGBT community receives so much hate due to overly religious people who seem to think that they can judge another person’s love life. When in fact they are not allowed to do so at all. Yes, you may have your opinion, and yes you may express it. However to judge someone based on their sexual preference is ignorant. Just as it is ignorant to judge another person on how they dress or what they believe in. Everyone is different, I am completely different from my brother, yet we get a long very well.

The mass shootings have been getting out of hand. And before any of you start jumping down my throat about how we need to ban guns, let me say this; you could kill a person with a steak knife as well, so should we ban steak knives as well? The guns are merely just a weapon, I grew up around them due to the fact that my dad and his friends, and my brother go hunting and use guns to take down an elk. The person behind the gun is the problem, not the gun itself. Banning guns is not the problem, screening the applicants more effectively would help reduce the mass shootings. However there is the black market, and you can easily obtain a weapon that way, just as you can get a hit man or drugs on the black market. Guns are merely a pawn in the game of someone who is mentally incapable of coping with situations, it is truly the person behind the gun that kills another person.

Violence should not be escalating like this. Right now, I don’t have any kids, but I do have younger cousins who are growing up with this. They are being conditioned to think that this the only way to deal with situations. They are being conditioned to say, “Oh look another shooting” then go on with their day. Which to me it is horrific. We need to actually make a difference in this society of ours and actually do something to lower the violent rates. I am more of a pacifist, however I will say this, if I were put in a dangerous situation I would fight to keep my life and keep the lives of others. It is part of my personality to protect others and make sure that they are safe.

What say you? Are you going to just look at your television every morning and just be conditioned like the rest of the society to just accept these horrific violent rates? Or are you going to stand up against it and make a difference for the future generations to come?

 

**Drawing by Abby (Pinterest)

Daughters of the Veil

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From a very young age I knew something was little off with me and also my mom. I knew that there were things that we could not explain, and one of the things we could not explain was why we were able to communicate more frequently with the in-between. The in-between from what I have gathered since I was child is the veil that separates spirits and humans. It is a veil that gets thinner during Samhain, but for my mom and I, and others from our line (female) have been able to connect to it every day and night. For the most part, it is nice to be able to connect with our ancestors and those who have recently passed on, but a majority of the time it is a little too much. We never know who could be with us at any given point and time.

My entire life, I felt like an outsider, especially in my own family with a majority of them being unable to relate to my mom and I. My granny Neoma had told me before she passed that I was always going to be on the outside of society because I was just like her, I was able to do the things she was able to do. At the time, I didn’t like that and quite honestly to this day I do enjoy being on the outside because it shows me what the world is really like.

Numerous times I’ve encountered spirits that I didn’t know who they were and sometimes I was little worried until I was reassured by my guides. I’ve seen strange women coming into my bedroom in the middle of the night, thinking it might be my mom then I would realize that my mom doesn’t have blonde hair. I’ve encountered the voices of spirits. Once I was leaving work and I had gotten into my truck, when I had gotten settled in (buckled up, turned on the truck) I had heard a voice coming from the passenger side saying “She is in and safe.” I thought someone might have been in my truck without me knowing so I had looked in the backseat and no one was there, and the stereo wasn’t on due to the fact that it was broken. I shrugged it off and just went home. Another time, I was in my apartment in Albuquerque watching Bewitched on DVD I saw that the bathroom door was opened, and I was puzzled. All of the doors in my place have to be closed at all times (long story), so I decided to go shut the door. As I approached the bathroom door, I saw a woman go into the bathroom and it made me stop in my tracks. I turned on the bathroom light to be greeted by the small bathroom that consisted of a toilet, mirror, sink and a standing shower. Not much room, and nowhere to hide. I looked behind the curtain of the shower and no one was there. As I turned to walk out of the bathroom. I saw someone standing behind me in the mirror, I turned around to be greeted by nothing. I turned to walk out the door, and saw the figure in the mirror once again, this time I could make it out to be a woman and she was reaching out her hand to my shoulder. I didn’t wait to find out who she was, so I bolted out of the bathroom while turning off the light and closing the door. I didn’t go into the bathroom for the rest of the night.

I’ve always thought that I was a little insane, thought I was hallucinating and thought that I was going to end up in a psychiatric unit; but I was guided by my amazing mom, several medicine women and men, and those who I call friends that also connect with the veil. Being a daughter of the veil is intense, you never know what lurks around the corner, and sometimes you might feel like you will have a panic attack, but if you have a good support system, things run more smoothly.