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Book Club: July


“The Diary of a Chambermaid” by Octave Mirbeau graces the book of the month club for the month of July. This classic book transports back in time to witness the life of Celestine, a chambermaid, that goes to different houses and takes care of the occupants. Her first station is at the home of an elderly man who has an odd fetish with her boots, later on while she is still working there, she finds the man dead in bed with one of her boots in his mouth. She then takes a position at a home where a married bourgeois couple reside, and she finds herself in the midst of a estranged marriage and ends up becoming entangled in their marriage as well. Celestine’s last position is at the home of bourgeois café hostess who mistreats her servants at every turn. During all these positions at all of these different residents, Celestine has begun to learn more about her body, her mind frame, and finds herself learning the ways of love, sex, and even the ways of the upper class world.

Octave Mirbeau is one of the most gifted authors of the late 1800’s-early 1900’s, and this book proves the talent he possessed. Celestine, the main character of the novel, is a great strong leading character, showing exactly what all women go through from an early age, and it shows that each woman takes control of their own lives and situations in different ways.

I thoroughly enjoy this novel, just as I enjoy all of Octave’s other novels, and this is why I highly recommend reading this book for the month of July. Once you have finished reading this book, comment below and tell me what your thoughts are on the character, the plot, and the book as a whole.


A Letter to my 18 year old Self

To My 18 year old Self,


Congratulations you are graduating high school, now here are somethings you need to know about entering the adult world. As you enter into the adult world, you will feel even more confused, alone, and maybe slightly unsure about if you are doing the right thing, and here is the thing, do not worry too much. Because you are not the only one who feels this way, millions of people feel alone, feel unsure about their purpose, and feel as though they are lost in the chaos of life. Just breathe. Breathe and do not be afraid to get the help that you need.

As you navigate through the college years and the multiple jobs you will have, you will find yourself a little more. Especially in the sense of what you are looking for in a workplace setting, and what you are looking for in your own career. Don’t assume that you will figure it out right away, because in reality that is just ridiculous. You will not figure it out until later on in life. Also, keep in mind, you will have numerous jobs, these jobs are to prepare you for your own business that you will end up creating in your early twenties.

Love, you never really focused on love all that much in high school. Sure, you dated a few people, but you never really thought about love, or the marriage aspect of it. But now as you head into adulthood, you will end up finding yourself focusing a little more on the whole subject matter. Before you end up in a relationship with anyone, figure out what it is that you look for in a partner, because if you have no clue then you will end up throwing yourself into random useless relationships that are unfulfilling, and you will end up thinking that there is something wrong with you. And you know that saying, “things will happen when the time is right”? Yeah, that saying is true. Stop overthinking everything and focusing on the fact during the times that you are single that you don’t have anyone, because that is not helping you and you will end up putting yourself through even more heartache.

Don’t be afraid to speak your mind, because I know right now that you are extremely shy about saying anything, because you are more about making sure that everyone is happy, and you are more about pleasing everyone. Know this, you cannot please everyone. And with you still in the closet to a good portion of your family, you are hurting yourself and damaging yourself even more. Be proud to be bisexual, there is nothing wrong with it.

Just remember, life is going to tear you down, send you into a breakdown, and I know that you will have more depression breakdowns, just remember to breathe. Go get help, don’t be stubborn, and do not think that you are a burden because you are not. And remember to breathe, because if you could see where you are now in 2017, you would be so proud.


25 year old me


An Herbalist Advice: Tea for Meditation


There are times where when you want to meditate, you can be overwhelmed by everything around you. There might be too much noise, or your head is full of many things running around and it makes it hard for you to even meditate. Downing a cup of coffee is not the best thing to do when you are trying to clear your head and meditate, thankfully there is a type of tea that I enjoy using that helps my head clear out (safely of course).

5 tsp. Lady Grey Tea
2 tsp. Chamomile
1 tsp. Rose Hips
1 Elder Flower

Steep the herbs for ten to fifteen minutes, pour into your mug, and enjoy. Drink only one cup full, then you can head off to your meditation session.

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Quirky, Intuitive, and Whimsical

In today’s society, it is still hard to be yourself. You are constantly told to settle down; become more adult like and step away from your inner child.

It is hard for me to do that. My personality is unique as it is; on one hand I am extremely compassionate, spiritual, intuitive, and philosophical. And on the other hand, I have an abstract and surrealist type of mind, that is mixed with a gothic whimsical “Alice in Wonderland” childhood. I am always trying to show others that it is okay to be different and they should not be afraid to show who they really are.

I believe that you don’t need to shove a certain part of your personality in order to grow up. There is no reason for that. Instead, find a balance between your adult personality and inner child. I’m always using my imagination to make it through the day at work and it definitely helps keep me sane, because I get everything done and I am still being true to myself.

Don’t let corporate society tell you to leave your inner child and be a full adult; you will become depressed, I’ve seen it time and time again. Just find a balance between your worlds.